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By </a><a href="http://theologytoday.ptsem.edu/apr1992/v49-1-article5.htm#Komp">Diane M. Komp</a></div>
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<div align="CENTER"><font size="-1">Diane M. Komp, M.D., is Professor of Pediatrics,
Yale University School of Medicine, and Attending Physician at the Yale-New
Haven Hospital. Three of Dr. Komp's articles have appeared in THEOLOGY TODAY,
and she is interviewed in the March issue of LIFE magazine. A Deacon in the
First Congregational Church, Guilford, Conn., she is the author of a newly-released
book, <i>A Window to Heaven: When Children See Life in Death</i> (Grand Rapids:
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<div><font size="4"><font face="Times New Roman, Times, serif"></font></font>One of these blessed least, Baby Henry, did not survive his illness, and I
wondered how one could "find God" while hoping for healing and stay faithful
after that hope seems vanished. Several years later, Naomi wrote to me to tell
me of a dream she had.</div>
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<div>She dreamed that she and the baby were in the kitchen of the church where
she grew up. Henry was crawling around on the floor and every time he got
to a certain place in the center, he'd say "God!" He was very happy, like
a child greeting a well-known and trusted friend or parent. In her dream,
Naomi commented to a friend that it gave her goosebumps. It was as though
Henry could see God although they couldn't. Then, the next time he reached
the center, he died. His legs buckled under him and he threw his head back
to look at her once more and reached out an arm. Naomi rushed over to him
and grabbed his hand but it was too late. His eyes were blank and he was dead.</div>
<div>"Suddenly, God strode in and scooped up my little one and perched him on
an arm. Henry sat on' God's arm with a hand on the shoulder, laughing and
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<div>"God saw how sad I was and felt sorry for me so He handed Henry to me and
said I could keep him for a while longer until he returned from the mission
he had to go on. Henry was fine now although not as animated with me and I
held him. It was as though he had been handed from a Parent to a trusted babysitter."
He was in her arms, but watching God.</div>
<div>As God was leaving, Naomi asked, "Will I have other children I can keep?"
She goes on, "God stopped and looked at me with so much love, it was overwhelming
and said gently, in a way that made me feel especially cared for: 'Everyone's
life has a plan.' "</div>
<div>Naomi held Henry's cheek to her own and tried to figure out whether God's
look had betrayed any sorrow (that she would not get her wish) or amusement
(that good things were ahead for her). "But there was neither, just love,
overwhelming love. That was what mattered and that was what the answer was-not
yes or no, but God's love."<sup><a href="http://theologytoday.ptsem.edu/apr1992/v49-1-article5.htm#12">12</a></sup></div>
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<div>In the years since this mysterious dream was first shared, I've tried many
times to write about it. I've failed to analyze it, but each time I've told
it, someone says that they, like Naomi, were "healed." The peace and healing
of God that defy all human understanding can keep our hearts and minds, even
when they don't satisfy our analytical inclinations.<sup><a href="http://theologytoday.ptsem.edu/apr1992/v49-1-article5.htm#13">13<font size="4"><font face="Times New Roman, Times, serif"><br>
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<div><sup><font size="-1">12</font></sup><font size="-1"><a name="12"></a> In the
years since Henry's death, Naomi and Jim became the proud parents of two healthy
babies.<br>
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